I know in the past my blog has had something super structured to talked about, but this time that isn't the case. I figured I might just talk a little about my life.
So, as Dylan once wrote, the times they are a-changin'. I am going into my fifth year of college, and will be graduating after a sixth, so the school part hasn't really changed. I will still be here for a while. Anyway, I like to think the music in my life is a reflection of my life as a whole, some might say it is a reflection of the company I keep, but whatever. All the metal is off of my ipod, though I still listen to it, just not in my car or around campus. I had wondered if the type of music I listen to can contribute to my mood. I have come to the conclusion that music does not create a mood, but it certainly can exacerbate one.
There has been a big change in my person musical exploits, I sold my electric guitar and amp, bought a new banjo and will be starting lessons this week. I can already sort of play the banjo, I just have a real desire to be good at it. I have begun to look at music differently, I used to like to show off (and to a point I still do, I am a musician, it isn't an ego free lifestyle) but being the center of attention isn't so crucial anymore. I really just want to make music. I feel like that has started to carry over to my life too:
John 3:30:
He must become greater; I must become less.
John the Bap had the right idea. Living not for ourselves but for the glory of God. It a hard thing to do. We are selfish. I feel like we have this idea that we are the way we are and that's the end of the discussion. That people just have to deal with us. I think that's wrong. Relationships are a continually changing thing. Human relationships are mutually changing, but the God to man relationship is one way, God doesn't need to change, he is perfect in all things. He will love us even if we don't change, for his love is unconditional, but a healthy relationship is not stagnant. It is our job to be like Christ, that is a full time job, a full life job.
Ha, a bit of a tangent. Anyway trying to be less selfish is hard. But necessary. Change is what relationships is all about, willingness to change for someone, and for ourselves.
I don't really know what to say. OH! It has now been more than a year since Africa. So that's crazy. I miss it. But I am really happy with where my life is currently. I miss my GP friends, I hope you all are doing well. Drop me a line on the phone, on here, or on the facebook. I would like to hear from you all! Those two months changed my life, and I am still unpacking things I learned a year ago. Crazy stuff.
That is all for now. Here is a selection for My Morning Jacket's album "Z"
The song is "Wordless Chorus"
Fissure is the thrill of the day
Forget about feeling
That's not what pays
But you know - all of this can change
Remember the promise as a kid you made
We are the innovators
They are the imitators
Come on - hey, don't you know how we started
We forget about love
But weren't brokenhearted
